Films, Stories, Company, Modeling and more

So i have not been here for quite a while. But i have been else where, i have been thinking about what i want to be and do in life so i have been searching and doing things that i may do in the next two years. in two years time i will be in University doing something but what?

I love making MOVIES and i always wanted to be a DIRECTOR. writing stories down, being in charge of actor (which i adore!) and basically putting my view of things on a BIG SCREEN for the world to see. So i met a man who is one of the directors of some channels like BBC, CHANNEL 4, and CBBC so i had a little chat with me and he gave me his contacts and said i can call him anytime or write to him if i need something but first i have to make my own first movie. so that what i have been trying to do, i have been trying to a make a good quality movie. But that's not all i have been doing. BUT then again i LOVE to act! being acting in lead roles in all the plays i want to do shows that people do believe in me, and people do say i am gifted for being an ACTRESS. to act and be someone else......me that is just impossible because i believe i could and i am someone in some way, i have a part of someone out there, and someone out there understand me exactly and even more than me. i sometimes stay in my room talking to myself and making monologues only because i know what i want to say but how? and to who? sometimes we just have to put our thoughts in a story so everyone can read it like when we were little.

Wanting to become i one thing but gaining experience is another, so i know a lady that can help me make my own company and get my own people and make a play each year for the locals in London. I have already tried to do this and it didn't work out because of unreliable friends and not enough planning so i quite, but now i want to give it my all (two years is not that far you know) so now i am writing down all the things i want for this COMPANY and who will be part of it can help me and what we are going to do...blah blah blah. SO IF ANYONE OUT THERE LOVES DRAMA,ACTING,WRITING PLAYS OR THINGS LIKE THAT AND YOU ARE IN LONDON GET TO ME PLEASE. :).

I then went to do some MODELING jobs with up coming designers i know to help promote their work for free, (i just wanna do something instead of watching family guy the whole day) so anyhow by doing that other people got hold of my number and now am doing some more modeling, i guess being 5,8 is not that bad at all. I have got to start somewhere init aha

so yh sorry for the long essay but i really miss coming here and i know i don't have a lot of followers but i love saying thing and doing things that i don't really talk about so this helps. if am talking to myself then at lest i have got it out head, you know.

soooooo yh, have a nice day everyone. i will be back soon
xoxox mariatou